my name is kathy and i'm 21
just like most everyone else on tumblr i have anxiety problems and self-esteem issues and probably undiagnosed depression (although i am working on talking to people about this so i will find out soon)
this is just the blog where i can angst about my problems without anyone getting annoyed about it, so there will be a lot of talk about my personal issues, feelings, and things that are wrong with me and my life.
just so you're warned.
wow stop thinking that people care about you they really don’t
no one reads your posts anymore stop refreshing and waiting for responses
no one cares about you just get used to it
you’ll always be second best there will always be people that people care about more than you you’re never gonna be good enough just get it through your head
stop trying
no one cares about you and no one will ever care about you
get used to it and stop complainingÂ
well i’m glad your life is fucking working out you told me you’d be there for me when i needed you but clearly that’s not true i tried to ask you for help before and you told me you didn’t have time for me so now i don’t even goddamn try anymore
just another person in an apparently continuously growing line of people who tell me they’ll be there for me and then when i need them decide they don’t actually want to be there anymore
what am i doing wrong
i haven’t actually cut myself since mayish
time for a relapse woohoo
sometimes i’m like, oh i should eat something
and then i look in the mirror and am reminded of how fat i am and then i’m like, ok nevermind
i just want all this hurt to go away
i just feel so hurt and betrayed all the time and i just want it to go away so i can live normally again
i want to be able to look forward to things and be happy and smile without feeling like i’m lying
i just want to stop hurting so much because i am so fucking tired of it
